Quest

I always loved this geeky word. There was a cartoon I watched when I was 5 called Johnny Quest. Star Trek was about a quest. The Bible talks about seeking God. Everyone is looking for something.

I realise I began my journey when I became a teenager. Becoming an adult is exciting dramatic even traumatic. The biggest mistake is to want the seeking the growing the journey the quest to end on some finish line.

Anyone, any group, any effort to tell people they have arrived, this is the promised land, you've found it, in order to retire... I think it's the beginning of dying. Living is to seek.

I almost gave up because so many voices said I was not good enough. What if the truth is we were always good enough to become ourselves. And this self never stops growing healing and seeking.

Unfortunately many stop looking. After achieving success in money, family, ownership, popularity, beauty, even fitness... If the journey ends so does life.

False starts, missed targets, failed attempts, rejection, pointless oppression... All tried to thwart my quest. I consigned myself to long for stability and a way to live out my days in peace. Because of it or inspite of it, my body and soul rebeled. I got sick and began to heal. It still continues but I thought there would be some great celebration or event that would tell me I've arrived. I waited for a magnificent ending.

Instead I founded my friends, my love, hope, joy, peace and my quest which is life itself.