Night

"Making it through the night for joy comes in the morning." is a popular theme and may be overused. But this does not make the image of feeling so bad that hope seems to have disappeared as we wait for the dawn when sunlight seems to breakthrough the darkness in gushing streams of color and suddenly turns the sky from pitch black to light, any less impressive.

I never felt this so deeply until I went through years of disappointments and shock. Waking in the middle of the night to wait for the dawn became like a daunting experience because even the day seemed dark to me. I got up early again and heard the birds begin to sing just before the dawn in the trees behind my building.

Besides the troubles I went through, I now see that my struggle was with the common obsession to make lots of money, be really famous and retire at a young age (a boat I missed but do not regret). Most people I knew seemed to be chasing the elusive goal of making impressive massive success. But I wonder what they will do with the giant creature that will take over their private lives once the fame and fortune are in hand. They will have to deal with a dinosaur.

Like the bird that sings reminding me the dawn is near and can fly away at anytime, I want to wait for the joy of dawn by building a brighter more meaningful future with those who prefer flight over massive creations. For me the absurdity is to dream delusions of grandeur as if they will fulfill us. Money is only useful if used to invest in people who are not naturally to be controlled like cogs in machine. If given the choice, most (if the brain washing that mechanistic order is the only way is removed) will want to fly, sing and be free like a bird.

For to hold on to freedom and hope is to wait through the hardship of discovering who we are with our friends and family. To love and be loved as we live work and relax. It is a journey worth making instead of settling into the false comfort of machines (which is the way even information technology is being developed). 

I want to go down an untried path of close working relationships, apprentice like training, chase quality and real value for humanity beyond annual profits. Personally, I want to enjoy the company of those who pursue flight, song, freedom, new vision, new discoveries and just gliding in the wind of change.

I will get there. Just like the song by Boys II Men.