Struggle

It seems that I have most to say when I'm struggling. Whether it is because I feel trapped, bored, excitement, sadness, pain.... the struggle is to change. My blogs show part of my outcry. I thought it would take me to a conclusion, like the final page of a great novel, the triumph at the end of a movie, riding into the sunset....

As it turned out, each day is new with the pain of change, moments of darkness and triumph. I'm celebrating, mourning, loving all of it. The mystery of this life as it unfolds is like this strange flower that seems to reveal more and more of itself as it grows. The beauty is not a destination but the joy in life and growth. Even the struggle is part of the new peace and calm. The fear and panic is disappearing.